
NOTE: I originally posted this poem about a year ago. It reads as something overly dramatic to me now. When I posted it, many readers took it to be a sort of horror poem. It was, but not in the sense it was taken. I had literally aspirated stomach acid into my lungs. Since I already live – that being the operative word – with a serious interstitial lung disease, this was not just excruciating. It was frightening. Aspirating any food into the lungs is an “insult” (as the docs put it) to the lungs. I assumed acid would have to be an even more dangerous event resulting in more scar tissue than I already have. We can’t breath through scar tissue. There’s no exchange of oxygen and carbon dioxide.
There was someone in the next room that evening, but I was unable to call for help. I just sat in bed writing this rebellion in my head. That was then …
Currently health issues are a bit taxing. Like everything else in life, all bad things come to end. No worries, but that is the reason my visits to you have not been what they used to be. It is why my posts have been irregular. Thank you for hanging in with me and for understanding and for Facebook messages and emails expressing concern. I expect to be back on a regular blogging schedule come the end of December, including frequent blog visits to you. I value you … Live hugely! I do believe the ability and will to love makes us all victors in the end …
In metta, Jamie
Photograph courtesy of Anna Cervova, Public Domain Pictures.net.
Thou art slave to Fate, Chance, kings, and desperate men,
I sink my teeth into you, you slave of fear
And dost with poyson, waree, and sickness dwell …
Death Be Not Proud, Divine Sonnet 10, John Donne, English poet and preacher, 1572 – 1631
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You, Vampire, thriving on the energy of fear,
I slow you, slay you, sink my nails into you
as I sink my nails into the moon
You knock, knock, knock at my door
But I have barred it and locked it
I have hung a magic amulet from the rafters
My screams rise silent as a roar, black as a sun
They rise from the heart and pierce the dusty sky above
My laughter is a sharp cackle scratching your green eyes
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Your claws seek to separate me from my loves,
the very joys that are the foundations of my soul
My spirit grows weary then springs back again
like a wilting plant newly watered by a green hand
Yet again I won an ugly battle as puce and putrid acid rose
and filled my tender lungs – I breathed, I breathed, I poemed
as if there would ever and always be another sun
Know you, I am here to race and tear, to rail and gag
and still I’m laughing, poeming, loving, loving
Yes! Yes! – you Blackguard, in the end you will win the battle,
but I stand strong, strongest as the real winner, true victor
For unlike you, I have loved …
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So take your ax and your cloak and bury yourself
in the dark, the rusty, the bleakest bog
Your soul is prose and mine is poem and
I am straight and vigorous, the winner of all
For unlike you, I have loved.
Victory is mine.

Photograph “Keep Out” courtesy of Kim Newberg, Public Domain Photographs.net.
O death, where is they sting? O grave, where is they victory?” St. Paul, 1 Corinthians 15:55